pain

Today has been interesting. it has been an emotinoal and physically challenging day.
I am started to accept that she might kill herself, and am strangely ok with it.
I am even starting to accept that it was mostly my fault. She was going to break up with me by going out and killing herself, I turned her into liar, It was cause of me that she left the church etc...

on other notes
Hayden at school decided to put a staple in my knee. Let me tell you that the skin isn't very deep. So when you have to pull a staple out that has hit bone and bent the staple outwards, it is not a very easy task or painless for that matter. :P